Today, first thing, I rolled out of bed onto my knees and said the Third Step Prayer, “God I offer myself to Thee to do with me as Thou wilt…”. This was not so much due to my diligence to work the program as it was to feeling somewhat committed to do what I’ve recently asked my new sponsee to do. Still, I found it helpful – as I have found so many practices that I have recently begun again after finding myself slowly dropping them over the past couple of years – practices such as daily prayers and meditation, attending 12 step meetings, actively working steps with a sponsor, service. It was clear that as I dropped these practices my spiritual fitness suffered. I had grown more and more restless, irritible, and discontent. But a few months ago, as I began renewing my efforts to work a rigorous program I found serenity returning. And today I pray that I remain, as the AA Big Book says, “desperate” enough for this peacefulness, to diligently continue the work.