“One who was there had been an invalid for thirty eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition a long time he asked him, “Do you want to get well?” John 5:5-6
Invalid, unacceptable, worthless null and void!! Have you ever felt the powerlessness that those words convey? Is there a “little child” inside you that reflects on such things? Don’t we still hear the voices of childhood? “You’re stupid, fat, ugly and dumb…you’ll never amount to anything…you’re a zip, a zero, a nothing.” Is there a wounded child inside us that still stings from the critical voices of the past? If you grew up in a “normal” American family, the honest answer can only be, yes, yes, yes! It can be a very weird experience reflecting on those days. One’s family can appear to have it all together: servant hearted, servant minded, doing good for the community. And yet there resides within the walls a quiet monster known as Dysfunction that erodes the family from within. Dysfunction demands unspoken rules like “don’t talk about it, don’t think outside the box, the only feeling allowed here is anger (which Dad typically owns). There are certainly other feelings in the family, most notably depression, but that is an unseen and unheard pain that has no voice of its own. One other rule Dysfunction foists onto the family is “don’t trust anybody outside the family.” We must keep our secrets. Isn’t it amazing that we can be paralyzed by more a physical infirmity? But then Jesus asks us the same question, “Do you want to get well?’
In Service to God and Country,
Chaplain Pete